As I buzz around the kitchen doing my best to clean and make dinner simultaneously, my youngest’s canines struggle to break through taught gums, rendering her a clinging, crying toddler mess while my son runs laps and shoves an empty laundry basket in circles underfoot.
I decide it is time for an early bath and herd the children upstairs. They stumble over each other as they scramble up the stairs and settle in my husband’s and my bedroom. I fill the tub with water and toys, then set my children in to soak.
As the children play, I sit at the small desk in our bedroom and read through the day’s messages until I come across one that gnaws at my stomach. After committing our weekend to catching up on bills, untangling a mess made by our bank, and caring for two sick children, another problem has surfaced and within moments I am exasperated and crying to my husband over the phone.
Jack, begins to whine, “mooommy, mooommy, mooommy.”
I draw in a deep breath and hang up the phone. “What is it Jack?” I call from our bedroom.
“Mooommy, mooommy, mooommy,” he continues to moan.
I return to the bathroom to find him lying in the tub with his ears below the surface, unable to hear me. I shout, “what is it, Jack?!”
“I need more hot waaaaater.” I twist the knob and water sprays from the shower head.
Jack screams, “Nooo! I do not want that!!” Suddenly, I panic. I cannot battle autism and the ensuing meltdown building in my son, and cry out, “You’re the one who switched it, Jack! Not me! I did not do this!”
I did not do this. The words echo inside me as I fumble with the faucet, struggling to cope with years of angst and exhaustion caused by elements beyond my control.
To the mom who feels overwhelmed, I am carrying you in my heart today. I know your pain is deep, your worries are many, and you feel as though these dark and difficult days will never end.
I am praying for you today. Praying the Lord will lift you from the mire of despair. Praying He will reveal to you in a powerful way that you are not alone in the struggles you face. Praying He will plant a seed of hope in your heart and bring forth His peace.
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My hope and prayer is little love notes like this one will offer encouragement and support to our great special needs moms in the Wonderfully Made community.
I also would love for you to share encouragement with other moms and invite you to write your own love notes to submit for publication on the site!